i've no idea why im feeling so lethargic today. was so sleepy towards the end of chinese lesson. i endured n endured, trying my best not to fall asleep during lesson. when the recess bell finally rang, i immediately lay my head on the table to sleep. amazingly, i slept throughout the lunch break. fortunately i was awaken by the noise (cos there was a change in class), or else i would have slept through the next lesson too. HAHA! so i went to math lesson feeling giddy and powerless. bleh. continued sleeping when i reached home :x ok, i think i sound like a pig.
ah well, i feel really unmotivated to do things nowadays. i always let things be. i'll only do it if there's a need or if i feel like doing it. im becoming lazier and more ineffecient. im losing my discipline. AHHHHHHHHH! WHY IS THIS HAPPENING TO ME?! THIS CANT HAPPEN TO ME!! aiyo, someone pls tell me how i can revert back to my old self.
on top of that, i also feel that im very cowardish. sigh, sheila uh, y cant u just face consequences? y must u always come up with excuses to deceive urself? y am i so concerned abt how others think of me? pride? how much does pride worth? haha, perhaps she's right- 'dont care abt how others think of u. just do what u think u're supposed to do.' alright, i'll give it a shot. (:
anyway, im really proud of my newly elected committee. HAHA! based on what i've heard frm rachel, they seem to have lots of plans for nyco! our three presidents have been working closely tgt too! haha! keep it up man! do a better job than us! i believe that u guys can do it! hehh!
